what hurts the most

I remeber how sweet and caring you used to be how you so provtive of me and your sister

how you loved being with your friends and your smiled made everything better your hugs

were strong but soft you had the heart any girl wants in their man

than you left for felt the call of procting others call your name

you never came back the same but the guy i knew i also knew was still in you

than getting talk with you always made my days better and for some reason

always made me smile

now just hearing your name, seeing your picture

brings nothing but tears the pain still real wounds still tender as if i just found out hearing your story and telling just kills my soul

i feel as though this is a never ending nightmare

but i knows it real

but the problem is i dont know how to feel.............

all i know is i wish i could be with you but im not i ever will be able to be with you ever again

my friend i love you, you were my big brothers and friend i never could bear to lose

and my worst fear may come true

and all i can do is play the what if game and cry.................

i pray the Lord your Soul to Keep and Pray we will meet again someday somehow

doing the right thing sucks sometimes

why does doing the right thing suck sometimes

and where in the bible did he say this ( not literally)

i did something tonight i never thought i would ever do

but i know i did the right thing it just sucks cause in

the process i hurt someone else not on purpose

but i felt and prayed about this and i know it is the right thing

it just sucks cause its causing pain to someone else

blah

i hate this