my best

if you are reading this and want to go on as you read dont feel sorry for me or anything just listen with your eyes.... i sit in class take notes, read for classes, take tests, and write papers and i hear from a few friends is that the best you can ask of me is for me to do my best well my best seems to very bad and low and what makes it worst is i will ride high feel good about a test or paper then to come to find out i did really bad on it and i go from feeling good about myself to feeling like crap and its hard for me to see im doing good anywhere i just dont get it may be my mom is right my best isnt goodenough or i need to care yet even more are you kidding me i care so much about everything but its weird how things like what people say about you or papers or tests can get you from feeling good to feeling bad this why i have stoped saying ohh i feel good about it or i owned that test things like this will never happen to me im stopping from thinking like that and may be ill have to do better than my best cause its just not good enough as your reading this dont feel sorry for me cause that wont help just listen may be im a dork or may be not i dunno i just know that when u look at my tests and papers and other espacts of my life my best deffently isnt good enough