the facts of life

THE FACTS OF LIFE as i sit not able to sleep becuase i need to get this off my mind but i want to make this as clear as possible im NOT LOOKING FOR SYMPOTHY OR COMMETS OF YOUR SILLY OR THATS NOT TRUE there some facts about my life i have come accept and i dont understand or see why others cant or resfuse to understand what im saying i have never been the tipical girl the way most girls see is ohh she is sweet but ugly or yeah she is nice but i really dont wanna admit im her friend even now in college that has always been the case now with the guys even now guys have always seen me in one of the fallowing ways 1. " fat ugly stupid bitch' 2. as a someone they want to do just because she has big boobs but dont really want to because shes too fat for fucking words and thats all she be good for 3. ehh she okay shes just one the guys 4. shes a friend/little sister no guy in his right mind would ever see me as anything more and i have always been okay with it even when i had bf thats how i was treated i have never been a "princess" or anything speical and i came to college and for the most part it has been the same but more recently i have had some friends who have trying very hard to convicnce me otherwise and as much as i love them its just not the case i know better and i say this and i wish they would get off my back about it and i wish they would stop saying stuff that will never ever happen granted deep down i would love to be married but i also know in my heart i never will be becuase things that go for most people dont work for me and its something im more than okay with and i promise you there is no guy who would want a girl like me with my past and deal with a girl who ld and other problems so for the sake of being healthy lets get off the this idea and let life go on i have known this truth as far as i can remeber so what would be different from the truth i knew growing up to now nada all i know is im the same girl with the same dreams of graduating college and seeing what God has instore for her

to all the girls

I'm sorrythat i bought you rosesto tell you that i like youI'm sorryThat I was raised with respectnot to sleep with you when you were drunkI'm sorryThat my body's not ripped enoughto "satisfy" your wantsI'm sorrythat I open your car door,and pull out your chair like I was raisedI'm sorryThat I'm not cute enoughto be "your guy"I'm sorryThat I am actually nice;not an assholeI'm sorryI don't have a huge bank accountto buy you expensive thingsI'm sorryI like to spend quality nights at homecuddling with you, instead of at a clubI'm sorryI would rather make love to you then just f**k youlike some random guy.I'm sorryThat I am always the one you need to talk to,but never good enough to dateI'm sorryThat I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car,but when we went out you went home with another guyI'm sorryThat I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friendI'm sorryIf I start not being there, and being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new asshole comes aroundI'm sorryIf I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before workI'm sorry that you can't realize.. I've been the one all along.I'm sorryIf you read this and know somebody like thisbut don't care But most of allI'm sorryFor not being sorry anymoreI'm sorryThat you can't accept me for who I amI'm sorryI cant ever do anything right, and nothing that I do is goodenough to make it in your world.I'm sorryI caught your bf with another girl and told you about it, I thought that was what friends were for...I'm sorryThat I told you I loved you and actually meant it.I'm sorryThat I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your bf was threatening you instead of spending time with my family.I'm SorryThat i caredI'm sorrythat I listen to you at night talk about how you wish you could have done something different.Ladies always bitch and bitch to their friends that there is never any good guys out there, and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them. Well ladies next time you're bitching, maybe look up to see who you're bitching to, maybe that special someone is right there hanging on your every word as usual, screaming in his head "Why won't you give me a chance?"Because the person you are usually searching for is right by you.If you're a guy and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry "If You're one of the few girls with enough balls to repost, and you would never make your guy feel this way, repost as "To all the girls who.."