Causing truble with out trying

Wow yesterday was an emontonal day without even trying for it to be I went to Senior Salute which is where Seniors at oc pay the fee, give address for year books to be sent and make sure everything right well i was making my way and down the line had my cap and gown in my hand which was unbelievable feeling not going to lie i couldnt believe it the biggest dream i have had since i was a little girl was finally coming true well any way i go to where i could order ( oc made invations not so pretty) pluse i had already ordered the ones I wanted and than I get to where the im soposed to get my "oc ring" well, i politly told the lady thank you but i do not want one lady " well you have to get one" me No I dont Lady yes you do there free me No i dont i would never wear it she calls another person you need a ring once a gain i said no thank you person 2 well i know your parents went here what about giving it for them me im the only person in my family who came here well more the reason to get one i dont want one what about putting it on your necklace i said no this is very spiecal and i do not want it if you cant tell by this point i was getting upset finally another person said if she dosent want one than she dosent have to get one geeze im sorry oc i dont want ur ugly ring and these were the peopel from the company holy cow

outta control

This sem has been one the hardest for me emontionally, spirtually, personally and physically im taking 17 hrs and i honestly dont know if im going to make it parts of me are wanting to work to point i just die literally but at the same time i hear my body saying quit im tired and it dosent help that my family sits there says "im not sure your gonna do it" or "really do think you can graduate" and other stuff and so i find myself questioning weather i can or not even though this one thing i have wanted my whole life yes a college degree is something i dreamed about getting now im sooo close but yet soo far i still have to surrive 6 classes, 4 reasrch papers, 1 reasch group/indiudial project + paper, a reasch essay on top of articels and journals and lord knows what else i just feel im soo outta control i dont know what im going to do i cant breath pluse im still fighting the illness in my lungs which dosent help im not trying to complain but i find i am and im sorry i put the blame on self and i myself doubting God more now than ever before which i hate because i know i shouldnt but its my stupid human nature and im fighting against my self to make my life better and i cant seem to beat myself or the doubts my family is placing on me i hope i can do this