outta control

This sem has been one the hardest for me emontionally, spirtually, personally and physically im taking 17 hrs and i honestly dont know if im going to make it parts of me are wanting to work to point i just die literally but at the same time i hear my body saying quit im tired and it dosent help that my family sits there says "im not sure your gonna do it" or "really do think you can graduate" and other stuff and so i find myself questioning weather i can or not even though this one thing i have wanted my whole life yes a college degree is something i dreamed about getting now im sooo close but yet soo far i still have to surrive 6 classes, 4 reasrch papers, 1 reasch group/indiudial project + paper, a reasch essay on top of articels and journals and lord knows what else i just feel im soo outta control i dont know what im going to do i cant breath pluse im still fighting the illness in my lungs which dosent help im not trying to complain but i find i am and im sorry i put the blame on self and i myself doubting God more now than ever before which i hate because i know i shouldnt but its my stupid human nature and im fighting against my self to make my life better and i cant seem to beat myself or the doubts my family is placing on me i hope i can do this