Wednesday, December 26, 2007

ive come to expect it from you

IF YOUR FATHER OR MALE YOU MIGHT WANT TO TAKE NOTES ON WHAT NOT TO WHEN AND IF YOUR BLESSED TO HAVE A DAOUGHTER OF YOUR OWN. some of you know that Don ( my "father") and I do not have a relationship for basic reasons of him pretty much eaither treating worse than dirt or pretending i do not exist even if im in same fucking room as him. now if ur dad i pray you never do that your doughter because you are the mole modles of what we do or dont want in our future relationships and supposed to establish how a guy treats us well Don never has and never will do that for me which hurts yes but im learning to just accept it any way my brother and sister in law got some shirts for him b/c they have a wounderful relationship with him and his wife of which im happy for them any way they were deilvered 2 days late ( way to go fed ex) so we got them today and my bro and sister in law asked my mother and I to take it over to Don and so we did after eating dinner at La Fonda ( my favorite mexican food resturant) any way at no surpise to me they had no clue i was in the car and my mother told me she was rather surpised he never mintiched me graduating college ( im not so surpised) and never even congrualated my mother on her engagement ( once again she surpised me not so much). any one who knows me knows i had a bunch of people pray for them when they got robbed last year and still went to mexico b/c haven forbid they dont go they dont get invited back my mom was surpised they never even asked about me to her or my bro or sister in law am i no what i dont understand how someone can place vaule on people who say u dont come this yr to mexico youll never come back or even bother to ask how their doughter is i guess im just stupid or i guess im truly insvable to them as much as this hurts nothing hurt more than when Don informed a cuple of months ago i was herandance to his alacohol budget well Don from me to you you now dont have to worry about love your doughter margaret anne canaday ohhh ps i have graduated and i finally gotten my self to calling you just as asshole and yes thats a big step and one of best friends calls you jack ass asshole and you truly live up to it so if you a dad or want to be one day please value your children whether they disabilites or not

1 comment:

Sammie said...

That has got to hurt like crazy. My dad is not perfect but I cannot imagine him not even congratulating me on graduating college. I can believe that it would make you feel stupid or some of those things you said, but YOU'RE NOT. Don't let him make you feel like you're not loveable. Just because he has chosen not to is no proof of anything. It sounds like he's got plenty of issues to deal with. Please keep in mind that you have a heavenly father who loves you very much. we'll talk more later. love love love you.