Emontional girl

I litterally cant remeber the last time i had a week sooo full of emtions i dont know if i should be crying tears of joy and happiness or tears of hurt so im numb meaning i dont know which way to feel or how to feel and so confused that i litterally icnoring all of my emontions to get through the days   i mean i had huge highs from the results of my evaluation, the joys of good commpany and friends from long ago and ones i see often to friends appoving of imporant things ( to me they need to approve of :) ) and also just the amazingness of my students and how they surpised and amazed me and made feel like to them they know i love them and i making a difference with them  to friends who have are amazing just so thankful for and the little things they do
to lows of knowing my grandfather not doing well, and sick and just getting worse, to  some friends losing their mothers and another  loss of a grandfather and a teacher having major surgery who loved working with and  for me the loss of friend who battled cancer with  honor, respect, love and with a smile on her face and she  was honest with how she felt and how she was doing  yet  she  the best attitude i have ever seen of any one i mean really  she tought that i need a better attitude on life and be more apprative of it i wish i could have had her attitude when i was sick  and this week has shown to apprate the little things in life such as a hug from a friend just talking to them and smiles are so imporant and how wonderful it is to let the kids know its okay to make mistakes and know that when do wrong i still love them and when do great that were proud of them and  know that tomorrow is not promised the next hour is not promised this week has shown how living in the moment is whats really imporant and not worrying about how i look, my house looks whats improanthow i treat others and if your a friend of mine know that i love you and im always here for you and im so thankful for who you are :) and i hope you can be real with me with how your feeling about what ever is going on in your life  and i will love you no matter what choices you make in life i may not agree with it but i will always stand by you
i want to thank the friends i have had stand by me that few days through all of these emontionas and being there for me
i honestly do not know what i would do with out you
hugs
and remeber to smell the roses or at leasst try to find good in each day  and dont sweat the small stuff  it wont matter in the end what will is how treat those around you