heart borken

My heart is borken its sad i feel like this isnt real but i have to face it and know it is
i got a call last night that an old high school and friend of mine committed suicide his family was going through alot and i guess he decided he couldnt handle it all  any more and or felt that may be it wasnt going to get better  and may be he lost hope ill never know what was going on through his mind to make him feel this way and neither will any of his friends  know why now  we his family and    friends are here to moron the loss of him in this unspeakable heartbreaking situation and im still in shock of the news of the loss of this class mate who was a nice awesome guy  it makes me sad that he is gone i just hope on some level he knew how loved he was and special he was
please if your going through difficult times please know i  nor dose any one else dont know when or how but i promise it will get better and please go talk to someone a religious/spiritual leader, a trusted friend, family member, a counselor, a medical professional  please go talk to someone and please dont get give up and know it will get better and please dont lose hope
last night was just another reminder that time has wonderful way showing what really matters and that we are not promised tomorrow
and please know that you are loved and that will get better

and to my class mates or friends, family or any one
please know im always here if you need anything im here for you

please tell your loved that you love them everyday because you just never  when will be the last time you talk to them or see them
it amazing how life can change an instance