well im sorry i havent posted in a while i went home for christmas and came back new years eve and well i learned alot of things while i was home some good some not so good and i realized that no matter how hard i try no matter what i do i cant make someone love me or be proud of me even if im their sister or doughter or whatever the case may be to my family i have been told im always in the way and that i really wont accotish anything and that im better off giving up and well hearing this made me very sad but got me thinking on how lucky i am to have oc and have the friends i have espolly my cloest friends who know me best i really dont know why my family has issues believing in me and the person i am supose to be i pray god stays with me and gives me the strength to keep going......