PRETTY ENOUGH I WOUNDER

THE SONG LISTED BELOW IS REALLY GOOD ITS CALLED PRETTY ENOUGH BY KASEY CHAMBERS AND Am I not pretty enough?Is my heart too broken?Do I cry too much?Am I too outspoken?Don’t I make you laugh?Should I try it harder?Why do you see right through me?I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me,I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break,I crave, I love, I’ve waited long enough,I try as hard as I can.Am I not pretty enough?Is my heart too broken?Do I cry too much?Am I too outspoken?Don’t I make you laugh?Should I try it harder?Why do you see right through me?I laugh, I feel, I make believe it’s real,I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees,I hope, I stand, I take it like a man,I try as hard as I can.Am I not pretty enough?Is my heart too broken?Do I cry too much?Am I too outspoken?Don’t I make you laugh?Should I try it harder?Why do you see right through me?Why do you see, why do you see, why do you see right through me?x4 THIS TOTALLY DESCRIBES HOW I FEEL WITH GUYS AND SOMETIMES MY OWN FAMILY THERE IS ANOTHER SONG BY KELLIE PICKLER WHICH ALSO RELATES TO ME ALOT ITS CALLED I WOUNDER Sometimes I think about youWonder if you're out there somewhere thinking bout meAnd would you even recognizeThe woman that your little girl has grown up to beCause I look in the mirror and all I seeAre your brown eyes lookin back at meThey're the only things that you gave to me, at allOh, I hear the weather's nice in CaliforniaThere's sunny skies as far I can seeIf you ever come back home to CarolinaI wonder what you'd say to meI think about how it aint fairThat you weren't there to braid my hairLike mothers doYou weren't around to cheer me onHelp me dress for my high school promLike mothers doDid you think I didn't need you hereTo hold my handTo dry my tearsDid you even miss me through the years at allOh, I hear the weather's nice in CaliforniaThere's sunny skies as far I can seeIf you ever come back home to CarolinaI wonder what you'd say to meForgiveness is such a simple wordBut it's so hard to do when you've been hurtOh, I hear the weather's nice in CaliforniaAnd just in case you're wondering about meFor now on I won't be in CarolinaYour little girl is offYour little girl is offYour little girl is off to Tennessee NOW MOST PEOPLE FIND THESE SONGS DEPRESSING BUT THE FUNNY THING FOR ME IS I FIND MORE TRUTH IN THESE SONGS THAN MOST OTHERS I HEAR ON THE RADIO THAT I LOVE TO LISTEN TO AND SING TO BUT THESE MAKE ME THINK OF WHAT I DONT HAVE AND WHAT I DO HAVE AND IN SOME WAYS MADE ME STRANGER AND RELAIZE I TRY NOT TO TAKE THINGS FOR GRATED AND SOMETIMES I WOUNDER ABOUT MY BIRTHPARENTS AND MY FATHER AND MY GRANDFATHER WHO I NEVER REALLY KNEW BUT ALL I KNOW IS GOD HAS PLACED ME ON A PATH I CANT CHANGE NOR WOULD I AND I CAN ONLY HOPE IM DOING WHAT HE WOULD WANT ME TO AND AM I MAKING MY KIKI AND MY GRANDFATHER PROUD

I HAVE MOVED ON

I FEEL I SHOULD BLOG ABOUT THIS NOT FOR BRAGGING RIGHTS BECAUSE THIS NOTHING TO BE BRAGGING ABOUT BECAUSE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A VERY LONG TIME I HAVE A BETTER OUT LOOK ON LIFE AND ON MY FUTURE THAN I HAVE EVER ESPOLLY WITH MY FATHER, NOW IM STILL HAVE MANY MORE TO GET OVER AND COME TO PEACE WITH BUT THE ONE THAT HAS BEEN KILLING ME FOR THE LONGEST TIME IS NOW OVER............................... AS MANY OF YOU I NEVER DID GET ALONG WITH MY FATHER AND STILL DONT AND HAVE HAD A HARD TIME DEALING WITH IT WELL AS OF THE OTHER DAY I HAVE GOTTEN A PEACE WITH THE FACT THAT HE AN ASSHOLE BUT IS MY BROTHERS BEST FRIEND AND THAT IM HAPPY FOR AND I FELT LIKE I WAS THE BIGGEST LOSER BUT RECENTLY I HAVE RELISED THAT IM RICHER THAN HE WILL EVER BE AND I DONT MEAN IN POINTLESS THINGS SUCH AS MONEY, CARS, LIFE STYLE, VACATIONS AND SO ON BUT IN MEANING THAT I HAVE SOME OF THE MOST AMAZING FRIENDS IN THE WORLD AND A CUPLE WHO WILL UNDERSTAND THIS BLOG BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE, I ALSO HAVE GOD WHO LOVES LIKE NO OTHER AND WHO STANDS BESIDE THOUGH EVERYTHING AND THUS MAKES ME RICHER IM NOT SAYING IT WONT HURT TO KNOW IM NEVER GONNA BE MY FATHERS LIL GIRL BUT THATS OKAY BUT I HAVE COME TO A POINT TO WHERE I' NO LONGER CRYING OVER IT OR HIS JACKASS GAMES HE PLAYS WITH ME. NOW I WILL NEVER FORGET WHAT HE DID TO ME CUZ ITS SOMETHING YOU CANT FORGET BUT I HAVE FORGIVEN HIM AND I'M OKAY WITH IT THIS DOSENT MEAN I WANT TO SEE HIS SORRY ASS OR TALK TO HIM BUT I HAVE CLOSED OUT THE PAIN AND THOUGH IT THIS IS A BIG STEP FOR ME AND IT IS THE BEST FEELING EVER AND I FEEL A HUGE WEIGHT LIFTED OFF MY SHOULDERS AND I WANT TO THANK SOME ANGELS WHO HAVE HELPED ME ALONG THE WAY LAUREN, KPS, MEGAN, JAMIE, JAMI, SARAH, SARAH N GINNA AND OF COURSE GOD NO MORE CRYING OVER HIM FEELS GOOD

PUTTING PEOPLE IN THEIR PLACE IS THE BEST JOB I COULD EVER HAVE

YES I KNOW WHAT INTERESTING TITLE I HAVE FOR THIS POST AS SOME OF YOU KNOW I WENT TO A SMALL PUBLIC HIGH SCHOOL IN SA AND FOR THE MOST PART IT WAS ALRIGHT I MADE SOME GOOD FRIENDS BUT NOTHING MAKES PROUNDER THAN KNOW WHEN I TOLD THE ADMINSTARTION IN A FEW WORDS TO BASICLY KISS MY ASS I DID BECAUSE I KNEW THEY WERE WRONG AND DETERMAINED TO PROVE IT TO THEM THIS A SCHOOL THAT TELL KIDS LIKE ME WHO ARE LD ( LEARNING DISABLIED) WE WERE STUPID AND AT BEST WOULD ONLY FLIP BURGERS AT BURGER KING OR MCDONLADS FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES ( BULL SHIT) AND WELL THEY ALSO WOULD LIT THE EXMARLY SPIECAL NEED KIDS ONE IN PIRTULAR A GIRL NAKED KIMBERLY ( NAME CHANGE FOR PERSONAL REASONS) WAS MENTALY RERTARTED/CHALLEGED BUT VERY BRIGHT HER MOTHER, SOME OTHER KIDS MOTHERS AND MY SELF COULD SEE THE PONTEL FOR THESE KIDS TO LIVE IN GROUP HOMES, GET SOME TRADE SCHOOLING FOR WORKING IN THE REAL WORLD. WELL TODAY MY MOM SAW KIMBERLY AND HER MOM GETTING THEIR NAILS DONE AND KIMBERLY AND HER MOTHER WERE WE MISS YOUR DOUGHTER SO MUCH SHE DID SO MUCH TO ENCOURGE OUR KIDS AND NOW TELL SCHOOL THEY CAN DO MORE THAN WANT THEM TO BELIEVE AND STILL DISCURAGE THEM FROM IT WELL KIMBERLY IS LIVING IN A GROUP HOME ABLE TO TAKE THE BUS AND HER BIKE GO GET MEDICANE AND HAS A JOB AT LOCAL PIZZA PLACE AND IS GOING TO TRADE SCHOOL AND SHE AND HER MOM CREDITED TO ME FOR BEING SO BITCHY TO THE SCHOOL AND ENCOURGING HER TO DO IT SO IN THE END MOST SAY I SHOULDNT PUT PEOPLE IN THEIR PLACE WELL I FIND MY JOB BEING LD, AND BEING A CHRISTIAN BECAUSE OTHER WISE I WOULDNT BE ME AND IT SHOW THE WORLD I DIDNT CARE