JOYS OF TRUE FRIENDS

LAST WEEKEND WAS CRAZY BUT WONDERFUL I GOT TO GO TO MY BEST FRIENDS OPENING NIGHT OF HIS SHOW WHICH WAS AMAZING THEY DID A WONDERFUL JOB AND I GOT TO GO WITH A GREAT FRIEND  JUST WONDERFUL THAN SAT NIGHT I GOT TO GO WITH ONE OF MY DEARIEST FRIENDS TO SEE MARTINA MCBRIDE AND  GEORGE STRAIT OH HIS COWBOY RIDES AWAY TOUR IT AMAZING TO BE AT THE SOLD OUT CONCERT AND HAVE A 5 HOUR LONG CONCERT YES IT LASTED 5 HOURS SOOO WORTH IT  AND THAN SUNDAY I GOT TO GO WITH MY BEST FRIEND HIS BF AND ANOTHER FRIEND  TO SEE JEKYLL AND HYDE THE MUSICAL WHICH PRETTY MUCH WAS A MUSICAL THAT MET ROCK CONCERT BUT IT STILL FUN TO SEE WITH FRIENDS AND ENJOY A MUSICAL THAN  LAST NIGHT I HAD ANOTHER PERFECT  NIGHT I HAVENT BEEN SOO GIDDY AND HAPPY IN AWHILE DONT GET WRONG LAST WEEKEND I WAS TOO BUT I VERY ROUGH DIFFICULT WEEK ONE OF BEST FRIEND I CALL MY BABY BROTHER AND I GOT TO HANG OUT WHICH WE DONT GET TO DO VERY OFTEN SO IT MEANT THE WORLD WE COULD AND WE WENT TO DINNER  AND THAN TO SEE MY BEST FRIENDS SHOW IT WAS AMAZING THEY DID A GREAT JOB AND IT SOO RARE FOR ME TOO BE WITH BOTH MY BEST GUY FRIENDS AND IT JUST WONDERFUL THESE LAST 2 WEEKENDS AND IN BETWEEN ALL OF THESE FUN STUFF I HAVE GOTTEN TO HAVE SERVAL CONVERATIONS WITH ONE DEARIEST AND BEST FRIENDS WHO LIVES IN CHAICAGO WHICH MAKES THINGS EVEN BETTER!!!!!!  SHOW ME HOW LUCKY I AM AND HOW BLESSED TO HAVE A SMALL BUT AN AMAZING GROUP FRIENDS WHO ARE TRUE AND I HOLD THEM DEARLY AND IM BEYOND GREATFUL FOR THEM AND I LOVE THEM 
AHHHHHH
SUCH BLISS 
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I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I DID TO GET MY BEST FRIENDS BUT IM BEYOND GREATFUL FOR THEM 

3 years mindy why did you go

i cant believe its been 3 yrs since you left this world i cant believe i never got to say good bye i wish i had i wish i could have seen you one more time i dont think you know how much joy you brought to my life how much i loved our dinners and our talks how much i loved visting you and bringing you dinner and just chatting with you your smile was countagous i still remeber how we met and how much you changed my life  i will never forget how excited i was to see you but you couldnt wait you left without saying anything and i wish i knew why i wish i had a chance but i missed all signs  that you were need or did i i know had reaggred hang out time but i wanted to give you more time after an interview but you had already gone may be you were mad at me may be you didnt want to see me may be you were trying to keep me from pain and hurt but what you dont know is how much i hurt and how much i miss you and wish you were here  i still go to pick up the phone to call you but i cant because you wont and cant answer  i miss us having girl time  there soo much i wish i could tell you there soo much i wish knew where i am in life and i wanted to see your dreams come i miss you friend 

peanut you were amazing 

im thankful i got to know you i just wish you were still here i will never know why  you choose to go soon  i hope your happy now 

i cant even began to drescibe how much pain you caused  how much you hurt me how badly you hurt me and even if i could and even if i told you, you wouldnt care and whats worse you say your only good when your in a relationship with someone else guess being a friend a relationship not romatic but its still a relationship between two people  and you made it one sided and only want friends when your not dating someone but once you are thats all you need so say but guess what next time you come calling i wont be answering you burned this bridge and  than you tried to blame me for  what happend  and than tried  tell me  how horrible of person i am  and than tried to get me to lash out at you because for you that would be eaiser if i did but i dont do that you should know this you been trying to get me to do this months but it hasnt worked  may be time apart will do you good  may be youll grow up but than i know you  it wont because your choosing drugs  and someone who wont stay with you over friends who stuck with you through lots of  shit and hell  because i cared to much and what you dont get is that your not the first person to do this to me and i know you wont be the last i can only hope  you learned a lesson from this  I know how to handle your guilt trips, getting me to give you what you want  but i dont i simply tell you the truth and you cant and wont accept it you cant accept you caused pain and hurt  that goes beyond words you open wounds and swore to me you never would do this to me and you done nothing but lie to me  and cause me pain  treated me like i was nothing  again i know how to deal with you and this mess you left me with but i know you cant and wont accept what you did because to you  you did nothing wrong nothing is your fault  everything that happens to you is everyone else fault  

take this a life lesson you do this you end up alone  you only have your self to blame  but what kills me most of all is i still love and care for you as a friend and a sister and i always will but you could care less if i died tomorrow..............  now your just somebody i used to know......................