3 years mindy why did you go

i cant believe its been 3 yrs since you left this world i cant believe i never got to say good bye i wish i had i wish i could have seen you one more time i dont think you know how much joy you brought to my life how much i loved our dinners and our talks how much i loved visting you and bringing you dinner and just chatting with you your smile was countagous i still remeber how we met and how much you changed my life  i will never forget how excited i was to see you but you couldnt wait you left without saying anything and i wish i knew why i wish i had a chance but i missed all signs  that you were need or did i i know had reaggred hang out time but i wanted to give you more time after an interview but you had already gone may be you were mad at me may be you didnt want to see me may be you were trying to keep me from pain and hurt but what you dont know is how much i hurt and how much i miss you and wish you were here  i still go to pick up the phone to call you but i cant because you wont and cant answer  i miss us having girl time  there soo much i wish i could tell you there soo much i wish knew where i am in life and i wanted to see your dreams come i miss you friend 

peanut you were amazing 

im thankful i got to know you i just wish you were still here i will never know why  you choose to go soon  i hope your happy now