i miss you

i have been home for A day and half and im still not used to not being here i keep calling for you and looking for you waiting for to come out of hiding wagging your tail to give me kisses because your beyond happy to see me sleep with me  you were always sooo happy to see me and always seem to be able know when i need some extra TLC or when i need you to just  lay on me to let me know everything will be okay and know ill be safe i no longer have you forto let me know this and i know your free from cancer but it dosent make it eaiser for me just harder because you knew this time of has always been difficult but i never had to say anything you just knew and you knew how to make me feel better and knew extraly what i needed when i needed it but this no longer case i miss you and the house is just too quite and its just not the same and i know things change thats how life goes but it dosent mean its easy and dosent make feel better and its just soo hard because you were my constant my rock for 17 years this soo hard youll never know how much you were loved and how much your missed sweet buffy you were the best dog ever 
i love you