bleeding

the wound is opend again cut even deeper and longer than last time this nothing new to me i have been many times before  by people whom i thought i could trust and thought loved me  and you told me you were different and that you would never hurt in same way but you did...  the pain is killing and hurt just makes me not want to be here any more you told me you i would always be able to trust you but now just like before i cant trust and know that our trust level will never be the same and just like before you dont care and i doubt you will ever care  people are telling i should ditch you and get rid of you and walk  away but i wont but what kills me we used to be close and we used to talk every day but now you cant even look at me  you act as if im a ghost and you push me further and further away so may be i am a ghost because i know you so well and it scares you and hurts you but what you dont know is how much you have hurt me and how badly you hurt me and  i avoid you to just avoid the situation  your pushing me away has pushed me to the point where i just dont care any more and i dont even know how to be around you or talk to you and  your written words and spoken words mean nothing right now because your actions tell me everything i need to know 

and what youll never know is how heart broken i am and youll never know how or why this kills me but i know you will be fine