THIS IS WHAT REAL LOVE Category: Life So today i was out mercy doing stuff before my docs apt and i came by 2 waiting rooms as i was making my way around mercy and saw in 2 different waiting rooms in one a man crying and in the other a family crying, well there was a little girl about 4 or 5 who went into the other waiting room and asked sir why are you crying and the man i lost my wife,mybestfriend, my soul mate and girl said come with and so he fallowed her into the next room the girls mother looked up said sir what are doing in here and the girl said mom in one day he lost his best friend, his soul mate and his wife all in one day and well i know how we lost bubba today i didnt want to cry byhislf and he said im sorry how did ur son die and they said a drunk driver killed him and hes said i understand that i have lost my oldest son in Iraq, my doughter and my youngest son my youngest was deriving drunk one night and hit his sister and killed her and now he is in jail for the rest of his life this is the what real love is make sure you tell the ones you love be it friends or family how much you love them you never know how long you have with them

when a girl bumps into your arm

When a girl bumps into your armwhile walking she wantsyou to hold her handWhen she wants a hugshe will just stand thereWhen u break a girls heart,she still feels it whenu run into each other 3 years laterWhen a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through hermind.When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.When a girl looks at you with eyes full ofquestions,she is wondering how long you will bearound.When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after afew seconds,she is not at all fine.When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are sowonderful.When a girl lays her head on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever.When a girl says that she can't livewithout you,she has made up her mind that you areher future.When a girl says, "I miss you, "no one in this world can miss you morethan thatWhen a girl is mean to you after a breakupshe wants you back, but she'sscared she'll get hurt and knowsyou're gone foreverGuy Facts:When a guy calls you,he wants to be with youWhen a guy is quiet,He's listening to you...When a guy is not arguing,He realizes he's wrongWhen a guy says, "I'm fine, " after a fewminutes,he means itWhen a guy stares at you,he wishes you would care about him andwonders if you doWhen you're laying your head on a guy'schest,he has the worldWhen a guy calls you everyday,he is in loveWhen a (good) guy tells you he loves you,he means itWhen a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you till your doneWhen a guy says, "I miss you, "he misses you more than you could haveever missed him or anything elserepost this in 10 minutes and your truelove willCall youpost this asIF YOUR A GUY "When a guy calls you..."ANDIF YOUR A GIRL POST IT AS "When a girl bumps into your arm..."

there's nothing like a hug from your best friend(s)

so i have recently relized something i miss more than anything right this will sound dumb but it really has a made a world of difference i remeber when my 2 best guy friends kevin peters and kevin plumlee were around here it was always jsut a blessing to see them and have them as friends but one thing i miss the fact that no matter if i was the best day ever or the worst day ever they used to give the best hugs and when i would be having a bad day sometimes all they had to do was take a a hold of me and hug/hold me for a cuple of mins and say everything will be okay im here for you and since they both have graduated ( which im very proud of them for doing) one is on the H.I.M. PROGRAM ( which stand for helpers in missions and doing mission work in scotland) and the other is at gradshcool at TA&M ( GO AGGIES:)) and doing Mechanical Engineering and being a TA but there are days like to day when i miss getting their hugs but i know their doing amazing things

i have become what i feared i would become and i dont know how to change

this post might offend some of you out there but please read all the way though and if it does im sorry Other half i have to give you credit for this one you got me thinking...... Im truly amazed at how christians act on sunday vs the rest of the week we claim to be followers of Christ and Love him and our neibors uncondtionaly and yet we fail at that i know im not the brighest of people but here is what i mean we put others down if they do things differently from the way we do it b/c we think our way is the only right way to do stuff guess what were wrong.... i have attend serval different demontions of christianity in my life from Cathloic to Luthren to United Medthodiest and Medthodiest to Presbytrain to Bapist to COC and i cant believe how hard we are as christians to our brothers and sisters i have seen churches tear each other up for doing things different in some churches i have walked up for common in others its given to me i have gone to churches where women yes women have preached * gasp* to having insstumental music to accepella and i never understood why when all claim to have the same faith why we tear people up for not being raised in a certain demonation or for doing stuff defferently from another i have seen churches of the same demonation do this to eachother and it really dosent make any sense to me really Jesus doesnt give care what church you go to honestly it never says any where in the bible that if you arent a memeber of _________ church than your going to hell and it dosent say if you dont do worship this way your going to hell i wounder what would happen if insted of putting eachother down for doing things differently mind you God made everyone single one of us different and called us to be a family than insted playing our demontion is better than yours is game or stoped putting eachother down for it we came togagther to talk about why we do things differently and may be even embracec or even try doing something different from what were used to just to prove my point some of best friends who have helped me grow and learn and be who i am and who God made to be didnt come from one certain demontion they came from all kinds and they are very stong people so do this the next time your putting another demontion down or making of them or someone of that faith take a step back think about it and see how you would feel if someone did that yours and insted may be ask the questions on why they do stuff or even go to a church of different demontion and see how they do stuff you might just might learn something and your eyes just might get opend a little more

WELL FINALS ARE OVER AND I JUST GOT MY GRADES AND OC GAVE ME YET ANOTHER REMINDER OF WHY IM NOT AS SMART AS I THINK I AM AND THAT NO MATTER HOW HARD ILL WORK MY TILL A$$ OFF IT WONT PAY OFF SO IN OTHER WORDS IM JUST WOUNDERING IF ITS WORTH IT ANY MORE AND IM UPSET WITH MYSELF CUZ I WORED SOO HARD AND AND IT DIDNT PAY OFF ANY WAY MOM HAS HAD 6 DATES WITH SAME GUY AND YES I APPROVE AND ME HAPPY FOR HER

hurt

so far on spring break i have been stabbed in the heart about 100 times and slaped in the face about 100 times and bad part is its only wens did i miss a memo saying spring break = lets hurt marge as much as possible w/o causing physical pain to her

makes me wounder

well here something that bugs me i have friends who tell me all the time lets hang out but then we talk about it and then they never call me or ditch me and then others who say lets hang out but never do any thing about it or say after this or after that and makes me wounder if they really wanna hang out with or just saying that cause they dont wanna hurt my feelings but this jsut saying but not doing anything about it or keep pushing me to the back burner hurts more so than anything and keep pushing me back makes me wounder who really enjoys hanging out with and who my real friends are and makes question so much more im not saying im the best person to hang out with or greatest but i think im an alright person to hang out with may be i have it all wrong * vonrader im not talking about you* ps chris im doing while your gone

my friends are amazing

well i guess i should update im offically on azathorpaine which is a chemo drug but i did have a slight improvment so yay for that then i got to have ice cream with plumlee yay for that we have had some really good talks latley and it has been such a blessing speaking of great talks i had one with bro which was really needed and no i will not share with you on here cause im sure someone who reads this get upset with me and im not gonna put up with that right now any way i also had another great talk with plumlee these two guys are aboustly amazing to me im so very lucky to have them as friends and i have some other amazing friends who have been a huge help to me during this very diffcult time and i thank you for that i also have to say beta is amazing i love you girls thanks to those who have been a big help to me with alot stuff you know who you are bro and plumlee thanks for everything you too truly amaze me i love you all other half welll other than knowing me better than anyone your amazing and thanks for everything this year i love you soo much night all

pray

pray for my family

chesse but cute

well i guess its time for an update but im really not in the mood for one so im gonna share a really cute story and post some thing else and make this girly post okay so today im at mercy getting tests done and well i was on my way to the bathroom and this elderly cuple came in and they were holding hands and the man opened the door for her and then i helped hold the door for both them as they went in their spearte bathrooms and i came out before she did and he was waiting for her outside the bathroom and i guess he cant hold things well in one hand cause when she came out she was like let me go over here or and he said no i want to hold your hand and my heart just mealted i can hear all the girls saying awwwww or how cute and i can hear ever guy saying ohh lord chessy okay i stoll this from Jami im so this girl I'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because she's sleepy, but because she wants to be closer to you...I'm the girl who likes to be kissed under the stars, more then inside your bedroom or in a expensive resturant...I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss...I'm the girl who you can talk to about anything...I'm the girl who laughs at your jokes...I'm the girl who will have many inside jokes with you and remember each one...I'm the girl who will brag about you to all of my friends...I'm the girl who will listen to you talk...I'm the girl who loves when you hug me for no apparent reason...I'm the girl who loves it when you hug me from behind or kiss me on the forehead..I'm the girl who loves you for you, and doesn't care what other people say about us...I'm the girl who loves it when you introduce me to your friends as your girlfriend...I'm the girl who will always love you...SWEET HEARTED GIRLS : If you are this girl repost this saying "I'm this girl" i have the best two guy friends in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hung out with one of them today and im amazed at how lucky i am to have them as friends

update

welll i guess i should update sorry i have been a lil busy driving back from sa to okc yes im back break also tought me a lot of stuff 1. you cant always count on ur family but you can always count on your friends.............. 2. i spent a lot of time thinking about my faith and relationship with God and i got to talk to the 2 people who know me best in this area and no im not talking about bro although he knows me well im talking about S& G SARAH AND GINNA i know them since i was little and they have always been there for me and i was telling them about my faith and they were so encauring to me the said its okay about church as long as your still praying and reading and believing we want you to go back but only when your ready that was great to hear and to know their there for me it was soo good to see them and now Ginna is a mommy yay and im so thankful for the adivce they and support they have given espolly with some hard dissions i have had to make i lovethem soo much 3. home isnt always the best place to be between my father and his wife and and my grandfather not doing well and my mom its just hard if you wanna know more on this then ask me in person.......... 4. i love my family but i cant be around them as much 5. my other friend sarah tought me one of the best lessons and some she pointed some stuff out to me that i didnt see and i need to do she had to do it too and so its kinda effect it worked for her it will work for me and it what i got to do to get better emontionally 6. I love my close group of friends angie, other half, bro,kp, anna, aubrie yall are amazing i dunno what i would do with out yall i love you sooo much thank you for being there for me