ive come to expect it from you

IF YOUR FATHER OR MALE YOU MIGHT WANT TO TAKE NOTES ON WHAT NOT TO WHEN AND IF YOUR BLESSED TO HAVE A DAOUGHTER OF YOUR OWN. some of you know that Don ( my "father") and I do not have a relationship for basic reasons of him pretty much eaither treating worse than dirt or pretending i do not exist even if im in same fucking room as him. now if ur dad i pray you never do that your doughter because you are the mole modles of what we do or dont want in our future relationships and supposed to establish how a guy treats us well Don never has and never will do that for me which hurts yes but im learning to just accept it any way my brother and sister in law got some shirts for him b/c they have a wounderful relationship with him and his wife of which im happy for them any way they were deilvered 2 days late ( way to go fed ex) so we got them today and my bro and sister in law asked my mother and I to take it over to Don and so we did after eating dinner at La Fonda ( my favorite mexican food resturant) any way at no surpise to me they had no clue i was in the car and my mother told me she was rather surpised he never mintiched me graduating college ( im not so surpised) and never even congrualated my mother on her engagement ( once again she surpised me not so much). any one who knows me knows i had a bunch of people pray for them when they got robbed last year and still went to mexico b/c haven forbid they dont go they dont get invited back my mom was surpised they never even asked about me to her or my bro or sister in law am i no what i dont understand how someone can place vaule on people who say u dont come this yr to mexico youll never come back or even bother to ask how their doughter is i guess im just stupid or i guess im truly insvable to them as much as this hurts nothing hurt more than when Don informed a cuple of months ago i was herandance to his alacohol budget well Don from me to you you now dont have to worry about love your doughter margaret anne canaday ohhh ps i have graduated and i finally gotten my self to calling you just as asshole and yes thats a big step and one of best friends calls you jack ass asshole and you truly live up to it so if you a dad or want to be one day please value your children whether they disabilites or not

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FOR THOSE WHO DONT KNOW I GRADUATED ABOUT A WEEK AGO AND IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE IT AT ALL AND I HAD BEEN FEELING GOOD AND WELL AND TODAY I GOT HUMBLILED BEYOND BELIEF MY MOMS BIBLE STUDY GROUP WERE ASKED TO HELP MOTHERS OF SINGLE WPUNDED SOILDERS HERE AT BROOKS ARMY BASE AND HOSPITIAL WICH IS ONE OF THE BEST IN THE WORLD ( NO LIE) WELL I WENT WITH THEM TO DELIVER THE PRESENTS AND ONE OF SOLIDERS WHO WAS GRAUDING THE BASE WAS REALLY IMPRESSED BY WHAT WE WERE THERE FOR AND HE SAID HE WISHED SOMEONE WOULD HAVE DONE IT FOR HIS MOM AND I WAS SHOCKED TO HEAR WHEN HE WAS INJURED IN IRAQ HE WAS HORRIBLE TREATED BUT HE NEVER ONCE FELT BAD FOR IT AND AS WE WERE TALKING AND WALKING TO MORE SOILDERS THEY WERE TELLING HOW MUCH THE MOM AND THEIR KIDS WILL APPRATE AND THANKED US FOR OUR SUPPORT AND WILLINGNESS TO GIVE AND TO ME IT WAS LIKE WELL DUH WOULDNT ANYONE UNTIL ONE PERSON WAS UPSET WE WOULD DO THIS AND THAN I TURNED AND SAID IF YOU WERE ANY OTHER COUNTRY SAYING YOU DIDNT LIKE THE PRESIDENT OR THE MILITARY YOU COULD DIE AND THEY SHUT UP REALLY FAST AND I SAW ONE SOILDER NO MORE THAN 19 CRYING AND I ASKED WHATS WRONG AND HE LOOKED AT ME LIKE YOU WANNA KNOW I SAID YES HE FOUND OUT HIS MOM WASNT GOING TO MAKE IT FOR THE HOILIDAYS BECAUSE HIS SISTER IS REALLY SICK (DIDNT SAY WITH WHAT) BUT IS HOSPITALIZED AND SO AT THAT MOMENT I GRABED THE CHRISTMAS CARD IN MY POCKET GAVE IT TO HIM AND WAS HONORED TO SEE THE MEN AND WOMEN MOVING AROUND THE BASE SOME WHO LOST BOTH THEIR LEGS AND SOME WHO LOST AN ARM OR WAS HIT BY ROAD SIDE BOMB BUT I WAS MORE HUMMBLED TODAY KNOWING SOME OF THEM MAY HAVE A LITTLE CHRITMAS CHEER HERE BUT MANY WILL NOT IM NOT ASKING YOU TO SUPPORT BUSH OR WHO EVER IS PRES IM ASKING TO SUPPORT THE TROOPS AND REMEBER HOW LUCKY WE ALL ARE AND HOW IF IT WERENT FOR THEM WE NEVER BE FREE GOD BLESS AND THANK GOD FOR THESE BRAVE MEN AND WOMEN