this be a mirecal if it were to actually happen

ITS WEIRD KNOW ALMOST ALL OF FRIENDS ARE IN THE FALLOWING AREAS 1. DATING 2. ENGAGED 3. MARRIED 4. MARRIED SOON TO HAVE/ HAVE KIDS WHICH IS GREAT IM ALWAYS HAPPY TO SEE MY FRIENDS HAPPY BUT WITH THE LIFE I HAVE HAD AND SOME OF CLOSEEST FRIENDS LIFE HAS THROWN US SOME INTERESTING VIEWS ON LOVE AND ON DATING AND WELL SORRY BUT EVEN GUYS ONE OF FRIENDS TOLD SHE WAS AMAZED ON HOW MANY "DATES" I HAVE GONE ON AND WELL YES I DO GO ON "DATES" BUT USEUALLY WITH GIRLS ( FRIENDS) AND GO TO DINNER OR ILL TALK TO A GUY FRIEND SAY LETS HANG OUT TO BE TRUTHFUL I HAVE ONLY GONE ON ONE REAL DATE IN MY LIFE AND PART OF IT WAS OUT SYMOPTHY BUT STILL VARY NICE A DATE MEANING - GUY CALLS GIRL ASKS HER TO LUNCH OR DINNER AND THAN TAKES HER TO MOVIE, BOWLING OR SOMETHING ELSE OR COOKS AND DOES OTHER STUFF UNDER HIS OWN WILL AND NOT OUT OF SYMOPTHY OR ANYTHING IN RECENT YEARS I HAVE COME TO KNOWN FACT THAT THIS IS JUST NOT MEANT FOR ME AND WILL NOT HAPPEN WHICH IM OKAY WITH BUT FOR THE REASONS MOST DONT SEE AS ME BEING SERICOUS OR SAY IM SILLY ITS THE FACT OF LIFE GUYS ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL SEE ME AS ONE OR MORE OF THE FALLOWING 1. GOOD FRINED 2, LIKE A SISTER 3. ONLY GOOD FOR ONE THING ( SEX) BECUASE I BIG BOOBS ( SO I HAVE BEEN TOLD NUMEROUS TIMES) ANY WAY I LOVE MY FRIENDS MY DREAM GROWING UP AS A LITTLE GIRL IS THAT I WOULD HAVE A GUY WHO WAS A LITTLE BETTER THAN THE AHOLE KNOWN AS MY FATHER AND WELL KNOWING IT WONT HAPPEN BECUASE HE WAS RIGHT ON THIS ONE I WOULD TRULY BE SHOCKED IF A GUY WILLING WANTED TO GO ON DATE WITH ME BECAUSE GUYS LIKE TO PLAY WITH MY EMONTIONS AND IF IT WERE TO HAPPEN I PROBLY WOULDNT THINK ITS TRUE BECUASE I HAVE BEEN PRANKED AND LIED TO SOOO MANY TIMES I HAVE COME TO ACCEPT THAT I WILL ALWAYS BE THE GIRL " WHO WOULD DIE FOR A DECENT BF AND FOR A GUY TO GIVE UP HIS COAT WHEN ITS COLD AND TO CALLED BEAUTIFUL INSTED OF HOTT BUT I WILL ALWAYS BE ON SIDELIENS" TO MY FRIENDS I SAY WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD AND MINE AS WELL THE SADDER PART IS MOST OF THIS DONE BY THOSE CHO CLAM TO BE CHRISTIANS HMMMMMMMMMM SO PLEAAE SPARE ME GOD HAS A GOOD CHRISTIAN MALE FOR YOU OR CHRISTIAN GUYS ARE BETTER THAN THIS TO THATS THE BIGGEST LIE NEXT TO OHH YOUR FATHER REALLY LOVES YOU HAHAHA BULL SHIT TO IT ALL JUST SOME THOUGHTS ....................................

whats the point

WELL I GUESS ITS TIME TO UPDATE ON ME LATELY I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH WHATS THE POINT OF CHRISTIANITY BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH A BUNCH OF HIPPOCRATES IN PEOPLE WILL SAY OHH YES WE HAVE TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER BUT WHEN SOMEONE WHO WALKS ON OC CAMPUS OR A CHURCH FOR THAT MATTER THERE LIKE HE CANT TALK TO THIS PERSON THERE NOT LIKE US OR B/C I WASN'T RAISED COC PEOPLE TELL ME ALL THE TIME ITS SHAME YOU WERE RAISED PRESBYTERIAN IM GONNA BE BLUNT COC ISN'T ANY BETTER THAN THE PRESBYTERIAN CHURCH YES THINGS ARE VERY DIFFERENT BUT I THINK ITS A GREAT THING BUT ANOTHER IS A BUNCH OF CHRISTIANS WILL SUGAR COAT HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT PEOPLE OR BE REALLY NICE AND THAN TALK HORRIBLE ABOUT THAT PERSON AT LEAST WITH MY FRIENDS WHO ARE DRUNK AND DRUNK PPL IN GENIAL WHO AREN'T CHRISTIAN ARE AT LEAST THE MOST BLUNT AND HONEST GROUP OF PPL AND LESS JUDGEMENTAL WHICH IS WHAT CHRIST WANTS MINUS THE BEING DRUNK SO IF AS CHRISTIANS WERE SUPPOSED TO BE LOVING AND CARING AND HONEST THAN WHY ARE SOOO CHRISTIANS JUDGEMENTAL IT JUST DOSE NT MAKE SENSE TO ME??????????

i dont know what the next step is...................

Well im about to graduate in dec im about to accomplish a dream that i honstly wasnt sure would come true, but with the support of my best friends and my grandmother instealing in to achive it i will and now im thinking about grad school in something i know i would love which is spiecal education i love those kids i have always dreamed of working witth people like that because of my mine disablilites i have been expressing these to my mother and she telling why would go to grad school you wont make it or theres no need for it but i feel it could be useful i just dont know what God has instore for me i just know its not moving back home when i left for oc i knew i would never live in sa again yes i love it and love visting it but i couldnt live there ever again and now im about to graduate from oc i dont know if i will stay in okc for the rest of life or move to the east coast where i fell in love great partly because of lauren and part of me feels may be i would be long there more than here i have lived in the south my whole and felt like i dont belong which very weird...... when people ask what im going to do after graduate i have no idea i just know God has a plan for me and i just hope he revales it to me cuz i dont know what the next step and wish my fam had more faith in me but so much for wishing

if your gonna say your gonna do something than do it or dont say youll do it

Well, recently a lot of people who have claimed to be my "friends" have said hey yeah lets hang out lets get ice cream or lunch or dinner, however every time i try to get with them to do so they a. say well i cant this week what about next and keep it going b. say yeah ill call you, but never call c. ill call them, email, or facebook and they never respond d. or say i promise will do it soon and when it never happens believe it or not it hurts me and makes me wounder why you would want to be my "friend" when you dont actually spend time with me now im not saying im prettiest thing in the world or smartest but i think im fun person but apparently im not and i get hurt when people put me off or act as if pushing me off dosent hurt becuase it does and makes me wounder why they want to be friends when they dont want to spend time with me if you dont want to spend time with than tell me ill gladly stop talking to you and wasting my time on you but at least stop hurting me and my feelings