THE POWER OF WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF YOU AND TELL YOU

I have always been one to stand on my own ground and never afraid to speak my mind, inform people or make them aware of their prejudice of other people but never have i thought of my self as "strong" or "determainmed" or even "tough" I was doing what I thought i was supose to do and that i was supose to work 10x harder than most other students or be the outspeaken one the one who looks at the world very differently from most and i try vary hard not complain about it or even let it get to me i just asummed this was job what God had called to me do I was in a proffesors office last week and one I highly trust ( which is rareity for me ) and this proffesor and I were talking I was telling what had been going on between me and the supposed father of mine and how it was effecting my faith and views on God and Life in gernal and the proffesor was really helping me out when they threw a curve ball at me and said " your one of the strongest people I know" what me I have been in their office the week before sobbing ready to the throw the towel in on lots of things and than they say this its been a week and still cant believe it after hearing this I had the joys of talking to one of my best friends and they said well not only are you " strong" but your "tough" and "determained" which blew my mind still has but still struggling with my faith i wounder how can i be all of these when im struggling against the devil, fam, and stuff there is no way i can be "strong, determained, and tough" so i sit here woundering am i really could i be disbite everything who knows all i know im trying to figure out what i believe and what God knows/thinks of me so to my best friend and my proffesor thank you for pointing things out im not sure i would have ever seen or known

JUSTICE HAHAHA YEAH RIGHT MORE LIKE LETS SEE HOW BADLY WE CAN SCREW YOU OVER

Today I had my Court date for my ticket for the accident I had on the 30th of July I will let you I do not feel that I'm Guilty for it and I dont think I should have gotten one and Im uttlerly pissed off I was/ am used so a stupid Edmond Cop could meet his quata for that month. any way so I make my way to down town edmond to the court house where the procosactor informs us that we have one of 2 choices option 1. plead Guilty pay fine and dont get a ticket for 90 days wont go on the recored option 2 pled Not Guilty pay for the court fees give them about a month - 2 months get every one invovled in your case and than go to court than a bunch of us left the room to decide what we were going to do and they the two ladies working desk were shocked to hear our choices and cought off guard thats not normal we can let pay here you choose pled guilty or no constate and if you dont get a ticket for 90 days it wont go on your recored so that is what i ultimealy decided I feel very concrete in the fact that Edmond Screwed me over twice in this case once for getting the ticket and second for not getting a chance to hear my case like it used to be and it uttlerly pisses me off and Im not the only one another woman had same kind situation as me so to the Edmond Police dept you all suck and your court systeam is the screwest thing i have ever seen thank you sooo much for screwing over Good, Honest People and letting those who do much worse than us off easyer than ever I have offically lost all my respect for our judistal system and the Edmond Police force. love Margaret Canaday