last post of the year

well its dec 31,2011 which means its the last sat of dec and of 2011
and i could write about what kind of year 2011 was
i could tell you about my little surgery
but insted i want to write this blog to and for some certain friends
who i would not have made it through with out their love and support
i would not be where i am with out them those these friends
who went to shows, movies, dinners, lunches watched shows with me
were there with me through for very difficult times and were there during some really great times and i love each of you for making this year soo much better
love each of yall
i hope 2012 makes all dreams come true and wishes even bigger

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Well im offically beyond stressed right now
trying to get the apt ready for me to leave and be ready for post surgery
and im vastly seeing i will not get everything done in time ahhhh
i made a list with the best friend and thought ok i can get this all done before i leave town tues night/wens morning and its not looking soo good and im stressed esspically since tues i have to go out to the hosptial twice to get everything done for prep for and im not gonna lie im nervous and trying not to think about it but i knwo it will be okay and im ready to get it over with ahhh plus im a little nervous about going home and christmas im just complty overwhelemed with life right now but im thankful for some friends who have been putting up with over the month and helping me with everyhting and im soo thankful for them im not saying who because they wont see this in my blog or deviant but im soo thankful for them.

another santa story for you

I have been reading about a woman in Michigan who went into 5 diffent k marts and paid off 3-5 peoples lay away stuff if they had toys on it
and in settale WA where at a coffeffe shop one customer paid for theirs and the person behind thems order and thats still going on 3 yrs later and growing up one of my favoite charites to help with and fun was the elf louise where the city of SA come togather and give, wrap, and deliver christmas to needy kids and families in the SA area
well tonight i think i saw the biggest set of charity of one family to many others my friend emily and i were in wal mart and we noticed a family had not 1 not 2 but 3 yes 3 shopping carts full of food and tolties i first surpised but i was taken back and heart melted when i over herd the mom saying she was excited that now a charity ( not named) would be able to help several families and their kids faced lir up like no other and the Dad couldnt be more proud and the one of the girls said this amazing when can we do it again
how amazing is that
i hope this story and notes of others help you decide to do something wonderful for someone else weather its giving to toys for tots, or salvation or having people over for dinner or volunteering somewhere spending time with someone who may not have any one or simply giving a hug to someone who needs
blessings to all

i know the path

update from last blog fork in the road/cross roads
i know the path im on this time and
well i have answers this a first for me with some of things ive delt with in my life
in alot of ways a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and i have peace knowing we have solutions and that we know what to do
i still have some very scarry things ahead but i know on this journey i am not alone and im very thankful for that
and to those who know whats i appriate everything you have done from encourgement to making me laugh to just forcing me to think about it and showing the other side to the situation i really appriate it
this still a very scarry time but im thankful for people God has placed in my life during this time to remind me it will be okay and to know how bad things good be
who know what will come of this im just glad to actually know for once and not have to stress about the unknown

the fork in the road/cross roads

okay sooo its been awhile sorry not like anyone actually reads this
but ive been a tad busy and a lot on my mind and heart latley
so if i seem out of it sorry


im sitting at a fork in the road, a cross roads one i have seen before
the fork the cross roads of weather or not i should find out whats going
and try to get it fixed or pretend everything is okay and just icnore
whats going on this road i faced before parts of me are rational saying
what ever it is that is wrong you can take care of make it better
but than there the other parts of me that are going nuts saying
no no no its no big deal everything fine no need to worry or fix
anything nothing broken your fine and being redicousouls
i hate being at this fork in the road/ cross roads because
i can see how both sides are right but yet
i can see how both are wrong and it just seems
like neither is best but i guess we fill find out
which one was right in just over a week
yay freak out mood till then............
part of me wants to there to be nothing wrong so i can okay
your fine but part of me wants there to be something to be wrong
so we know what really is wrong and so i can take care of it
i just wish i knew which one would give me a piece of mind
and i just wish i knew which side of me was right
but until next week i will be busy distracting my self
and trying to think about this but as you can tell it weights
on my mind just a bit....................

dear friend

Its hard to believe that 9 years ago i was on my way to Oklahoma to embark on a new journey my college career i knew going on this journey to oklahoma was by far the scariest thing had done in my life i was about to start something i had always been told i was never going to do because of LD and i knew it would be hard but i knew it was what my KiKi and God wanted me to do but what i didnt expect on this journey was that fate/God had instore was me finding a very special person from virgina and me being from texas i would meet one of best friends ever as freshmen we didnt know what life would throw our way but through the good the bad and the very ugly we still stand as best friends 9 yrs later i still love talking to him and seeing pretty much very week and thankful we are still friends after everything we have been through and there is nothing like knowing someone will still stand by you during the hardest/most difficult times in your life and still stand by you and support you through everything and when times are good help you to grow and just help you come out of your shell and that you in return on some level can help them out when they hit hard times too and know that no matter they will still be your friends sstill stand by you and still love you and believe in you
to this you know who you are, your amazing thank you so much for all you have done for me and thank you for standing by me through everything i hope have only done 1/2 of a good friend to you as you have been to me and i hppe for life time long of friendhsip and many more things to come your truly amazing and such a blessing to me and my life so thank you

my saving grace/wind benath my wings/angel all in one :)

I have no clue what to title my blog tonight
may be ill figure it out by the time i finsh writing my blog
i have a job that dosent pay well at all but provides me a roof over my head, food on my plate and some ways to bless other people or at least i try too ohh and gives me health insurance yay!!!!! i have a job that is very hard, challenging, pushes me, but also a lot of fun and i get paid to color cant complain right??? and its a job i aboustly love and wouldnt trade for anything in the world and none of this was more than eveadent today at work for me, i had a rough week last week, and this week wasnt much better until today when God showed me some more of my saving grace, wind benth my wings, my hero (well one of em at least) and just that im not the teacher my girl is my teacher (she thinks its the other way around shhhh dont tell her differently) well ive had a very heavy heart for last week and half or longer, and today was no different until my girl came off the bus with biggest smile i have ever seen on her, and than we were on one of many walks ( thats her reward for doing good work cant complain there eaither) but i hadnt shown any emotion just put on another smile, and was walking with her and when stopped me ( shes non verbal bty) and she looked at me and could litterally read my heart and for 3 full mins did nothing but smile, stick her toung out at me to make me smile, and hug me as if she had herd everything that was going on in my life which she hadnt i leave that stuff at the door when i go to work but its like she knew what i needed better than i did and what a blessing she is and will always be to me im beyond greatful for her and that her lessons she teaching me, she tought me sometimes just a look in someones eyes tell more than words could ever express and im beyond greatful we know each other well enough to know how to do these things
i know God blessed me last yr with her this year he showed im deffently not the teacher and she is forever my saving grace,wind benth my wings, angel
i look forward to 4 more weeks with her :) shes the best part of my summer and i guess i found my title too

remeber life goes on

first im sure your socked 2 blongs a week a part crazy but apparently this blong was meant to be written because the quote involved have been on my heart/mind all day
and well its one i found this quote awhile back and i just love it because it says basically what we all need to do with our lives its so very true and simple but
true

you have to take the good with the bad,smile when your sad, love what you got and remeber what you had... Always forgive but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret, people change, things go wrong just remeber life goes on

i know we all get in situation where just seems life beyond hard and we cant through but we will you have to feel the emtions your feeling but sometimes you just need to put them aside ( it dpends on whats going on in my personal oppion)
for instance today i had a rough day at work and just couldnt deal with certain people or things i just needed a me time out and as i was telling this to a friend they were telling me how another one of their friends was having an even harder time did i feel bad yes and this quote has been with me all day and today i have seen why and im so greatful its just a great reminder that their times when no matter how bad things are in your life someone has it worse always and that things will get better you just have to faith and believe tomorrow will be better and know life will go on and yes everyone changes you will i will you have and i have but its okay hopefully its changing for the better and sometimes you just need to vent and take time for you and just remeber take a deep breath and look for the good in each day
cause we only get one shot at this life....................
remeber no one is perfect you wont always get your way but you have to learn to love the life God has given you cause it can always be worse and it can always be better trust me i have hit rock bottom but i have learned things will get better and yes life will go on people will come and go just as seasons some longer than others but everyone is there to teach you something you must learn to grow and be shaped into the person your meant to be............
but in the end life will go on this is life

Life, what its all about really?

I was chatting with a friend tonight
when they asked me what i thought life was about and well this is my responce to this friend
this is my personal oppion
life is about enjoying your time here on earth, trying to make it a better place, trying to make a difference in at least one persons life its about pushing your personal limits growing and learning and passing your knowlege on to others
its about showing compassion to the world and showing them love
its about caring and loving on those who suffer, rejocy with those who are rejocying and
and its about the little things in life such as the smiles, hugs, handshakes, hellos, you give to people when they may be going through things you could never imgaine
and letting them know 1 person cares
its aboust experainces of a life time be it a first kiss, dance, conquring a fear, learning something you didnt know you knew or could do
its about seeing the beauty in everyday life
its about late nights and early morning, laughing, crying, smiling taking too many pics hugging ppl till they dont like you
and living for the moment and enjoying each day that your given here on this earth
that is what life is about
as my kiki always told me the 3 best thigns you can give away to someone and its free too is a smile, hug, handshake
that my dear is what life is all about
well my dear life is a journey we all have our own journey and its to be expericed the good, bad, ugly, amazing aspects and hon no one can help you experanice that cause its different for all of us
this why you have to learn to take the good with bad, sad with happy and know that life is good and its not that ppl who have it all togather who love life but its those who love lifes inpereftions
not so perfct aspects of life that enjoy it

i would like to know what life is really all about to you

bucket list

hello readers if there are any im sorry for not posting in a month one i was unispired to blog and than when i was i was busy with friends before they left for the :( and i promise to blog about that later but for now here something i want to share with you i debated but after tonight and a chat with a great friend i thought i would share
so i was recently encourged by a co worker to make a bucket list not to make my own but by hear about hers
she was telling me hers and i loved it so i wanted to share with my readers if there are any mine lets see how much of this i can accoplish before i die :) i hope all of it but well see never know

1. HAVE ONE TRUE FRIEND IN THIS WORLD (NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE THIS)(CHECK) (THANKFULL)
2.MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THIS WORLD
3.have someone scream my name comming running to me hug me till i about fall over ( check thanks joey)
4.MAKE AT LEAST ONE PERSON'S DAY A LITTLE BETTER
5.HAVE MY FIRST KISS WITH SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME
6. HAVE AT LEAST ONE ROMATIC DATE
7. GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE ( CHECK)
8. JUMP OUT OF AN AIRPLANE
9.VISIT ALL 50 STATES
10. GO TO EUROPE, AUSTERLIIA, AND NEW ZENLAND
11. MAKE DIFFERNCE IN SOMEONES LIFE
12. LOVE PEOPLE FOR WHO THEY ARE AND ACCEPT THEM THE WAY THEY ARE
13. TREAT OTHERS BETTER THAN IVE BEEN TREATED
14. FIGHT FOR THE RIGHT OF PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES
15. NEVER STOP GIVING
16. NEVER STOP LOVING
17. KEEP THE DREAMS OF MY LIFE
18. NEVER GIVE UP
19. MAKE SURE TO TELL THE ONES I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM EVERYDAY
20. LEARN TO SING DENCTLY OR ATTEPT TO
21. LEARN OR ATTEMPT TO LEARN GUITAR
22. MAKE MY KIKI PROUD OF ME
23. SEE A COLLEGE FOOTBALL GAME LIVE IN PERSON
24. SEE A PROFESSONAL BASEBALL GAME LIVE IN PERSON
25. NEVER STOP PUTTING OTHERS FIRST
26. LAND MY DREAM JOB AS A SPEICAL ED TA/ TEACHER ( CHECK)
27. LIVE LIFE TO FULLIEST
28. COUNT MY BLESSINGS
29. DANCE IN THE RAIN WITH SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME
30. NEVER STOP SEEING THE BEAUTY, MAGIC, MIRCLES OF EVERYDAY LIFE
I KNOW IVE DONE A COUPLE OF THESE AND I HOPE WITH SOME THAT I NEVER STOP
I HOPE YOU ENJOYED
DO YOU HAVE A BUCKET LIST
NO MATTER HOW OLD YOU ARE YOU SHOULD MAKE ONE AND YOU CAN ALWAYS ADD TO IT :)

there is a reason for other faiths

I recently read on a church sign that " God dosent believe in athiest therefore athiest dont exist" which made me really sad because i have a few friends who are and i see God working in and through them more than i do my christian friends which has been amazing i love them because they challange me on what i believe and why and i love it and they also help see this world in other ways which i love any more and i beieve as christains we get so worked up in the idea that God only works through those who are christian and well im sorry to tell that not how he rolls and im beoyond greatful for that he works with people whom he choose and in the way he wants and im beyond greatful he does it be a really sad place if only christians were used by God because then we wouldnt have the bible at all... because paul, mathew were not christians when GOd started using them and i think we also forget that jesus was with the people who were conisder least group of people and i feel alot of christians but people of faiths in the group of lessers but whats funny i have recently noitced alot of my "christian friends" havent been there for me as my friends who arent hmmmmm makes you wonder what it really means to be a christain and better yet a friend...
so for these reasons im beyond God uses who wants how he wants in ways to make our lives better and im beyond thankful for these friends who arent christians and challanging me in my faith and they also helped have good imgaines of God and yet my christians friends couldnt do this for me not that my other friends meant to
it just kinda happend in target but i believe that God allowed for other Religons for 2 reasons 1, not everyone is meant for the christian walk and 2 for those of us on it or any different religon to be challaged by those who dont believe or have a different faith but to also help us grow and see God working looking beyond skin deep or even juding someone for what they believe even if its different from yours
i want to say i do have a few great group of christian friends who help me in my walk as well but i have recently found alot of them turn out to not be so
God I thank you for many different ways you show your self to me
and challange me and all the faiths of this world

the end

well this 30 day of blogging has been hard and fun and a really good challenge for me i hope you have enjoyed reading it and getting to know me a little better
any way ill post more stuff just not as oftern:)

a dream is a wish your heart makes..........

HERE SOME OF WISHES OF MINE SOME SELFISH I KNOW BUT SOME ARENT
MY JOB PAID MORE
PEOPLE DIDNT JUDGE OTHERS FOR ANY REASON
PEOPLE WOULD LOOK AT SITUATION FROM ALL DIRECTIONS
PEOPLE WOULD PUT PEOPLE ABOVE THINGS
PEOPLE WOULD RESPECT OTHERS
FOR LOVE
PEACE
PEOPEL LOVE AND RESPECT FOR ALL OUR MILTARY, PPL WITH SPECIAL NEEDS
POPLE WOULDNT TALK, MAKE FUN OTHERS BEHIND THEIR BACK
PEOPLE BE REAL
NO MORE HURT
NO MORE PAIN
PEOPLE WOULD LISTEN
PEOPLE AGREE TO DISAGREE
PEOPLE WOULD JUST LOVE OTHERS NO MATTER WAHT
PEOPLE WOULD ACCEPT THAT WERE ALL DIFFERENT AND WE DONT SEE THINGS THE SAME WAY AND THAT INSTED PUTTING OTHERS DOWN IT MIGHT HELP YOU SEE THE WORLD IN A BETTER LIGHT

stressers

here are things that stree me out
traffic
rude people
people putting down others, make fun of others
being made fun of
some things in my past
not able to get things done

its puppy love :)

here are the pets in my family
who are family
this puppy is buffy shes my sister i love her

this is daisy my niece dog love her

me with the two of them they have my <3

this charlie and anna ( charlie is the dog;) ) charlie is newphew puppy hes a sweet heart

these are my puppies :)

family time

well i cant get my entire fam in one pic
so here are a few of em

my mom and sister in law amy at thanksgiving their beautiful :)

my moms finace, my brother and his brother in law at thanksgiving

daisy my sweet heart niece dog love her

buffy sleeping on my clothes my beautiful sweet sister dog love her

now you have met my family :)

MUSIC

im putting my itunes on shuffles and listing the
top 10 songs
enjoy
1. one of the guys - terrie clark
2.Do I - Luke Bryan
3. fireflies - owl city
4.Im Not That Girl - wicked orngail sound track
5. Dreamong of you - selena
6. I Cross My Heart - George Strait
7. Chicken Fried - Zac Brown Band
8. I wont let go - RASCAL FLATS
9. we didnt start the fire- Billy Joel
10 - let it be - the beatels
hope you enjoy my list

Lessons learned

tonights topic something i have learned
i have learned alot in my 28 yrs here on earth but the one lesson where its seems to be a constant reminder is to put the ones you love first and people in front of things this lesson that was first shown to me at the age of 5 when i lost my grandfater and my best friend on my 5th birthday grandma on my 11 birthday but i have also lost a lot of friends and family throught my life for verous reasons from cancer and illness to sucide and murder and the lesson never gets eaiser infact it gets harder but its a constant reminder to put people first which is what i try to do for all i know and ones i love and i always tell my friends i love them because we are not promised the next 5 mins little on tomorrow and too many poeple my age and younger feel that tomorrow will always come and i have learnedat young age and get never ending reminder that its not promised and there losses friends and family i will never get over i hope someday i will have peace with their passing but it also cost me alot of hrut pain and on some level i know im responbile for some which is whole another but if i can get anything across is always tell your friends, family that you love them and be willing to drop things to be there for one who call you and needed you because tomorrow may not come for them or you for that
matter and be thankful for everyday even your bad ones
i know i am

vacation..... wait whats that

todays topic is about your favorite vaction
well we never took alot as a kid cause there was never money or my father had to work we did go to missouri alot until i hit about 4 or 5th grade then we stopped going still not sure why probly because most of summers i spent doing tutoring and or summer school to get ahead and do better school so i could go to college
well i will say i loved going on mission trips to mexico (3x) memphis once arksas
and those were fun but i think the trip or vacation was one year i went to church camp and it was not a tupical church camp at all i mean less than 2 blocks from beach, with some good friends, sing songs, played have fun did arts crafts but i think i loved so much was because we were on the beach i love the beach i feel so refreshed, and reengerezied i dont what it is about the beach there something there that i feel closest to God and that he might actually like me and that week i grew close to my friends and God and im still working on that but that week got me away from crap going at home and and loss of my kiki
and kinda help me let me be a kid
ohh how i love the beach

make up bag

in my make up bag of which i rarely wear
i have some lip glosses, lipsticks, blush, foundation, mascara and thats
it nothing really exciting but thats all i have in make up
i just dont wear it that often

me

today i have to show a pic of me
well i dont have one of me alone so enjoy a couple

me with my two best friends

whats in a name

whats in name really
today i get to share with you most if not all of nick names
in no particular order
well my name is margaret Anne Canaday so here we go

M
Maggie ( not to be used ever again)
Sparky ( not be used ever again)
mags
marge
margey
margo
mac
baby girl
little sis
sis
baby
mc
angel
there are my nick names and no i didnt come up with any of em all came from other ppl

and still i miss you

todays topic is something you miss
well the thing i miss isnt a thing
its my kiki
the woman was my best friend, grandmother, biggest supporter
one who laid down the law and honestly someone i try to be
but i know i never will be her beacuase she was just amazing
and still want to be like her she was one who would bend over backwards for people until unless they did something to piss her off but even if they had a death or something she still did things for them i want to be that way she always told me thats its imporant to have a relationship with God and tell him how i feel ( still working on this one) she always said make sure to have a preacher to marry you and barry you you have to have your own faith she is the reason why i went to college she is the reason why i worked so hard to have the things i have
this a woman who tought the most imporant things in life arent things
but to make sure your always giving away your smiles, hugs, handshakes, kisses to make someone's life better plus their free and you never run out of em
she is one im named after
i miss her soo much i miss the talks we had the relationship we had
i miss her presences and just knowing i could talk to her about anything
i know its been 17 yrs but it never gets eaiser :(
kiki thank you for being my kiki for so long wish it could have been longer

regrets

today i have to talk about regrets
well i dont believe regrets i believe
everything happens for a reason sometimes we will
never know why they happend and i believe every regret or mistake
becomes a blessing but
one thing i wish i could take back or never let
happen was allowing my father to hurt me for as long as he did
but he now in my passt and i have moved forward
but i have learned i will never let anyone do it me every again

up comming

im supposed to talk about what im lloking forward too
well im on my last break till the end of june
but some of the things im looking forward too
are one of deariest friends getting married
a good friend/ co worker getting married yay
seeing my momma :)
having more time to relax ( hopefully)
working summer school and hoping i get my girl
and seeing how God blesses me and
how my relationship grows with him
thats really it

dream home

todays post is supposed to be a picture of your dream home
well i havent been able to find one of my dream home
so your gonna have to use your imagation kids
i wasn home thats single story or at least with a basement
some land out in the country
with a poarch that wrapends or at least a front one
big enough for a swing and back one for a girl table and chairs
thats my dream home
ohh and may be a pool in im ok or tex

psalm 91:11

first of yall yay me i have made it half way through the blogging without missing one day yay :)
todays topic is favorite bible verus
well i have a few but psalm 91:11 11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
this very special verus because this was verus my very dear friends sarah and ginna and i always used and felt that God used our friendship this way for us we always been there for each other it just great reminder that God has angels watching over us and i firmly believe this espically with sarah and ginna they have been there for me through so many things and im sooo greatful for them and their friendship of over 20 years thank you sooo much sarah and ginna :)

to granddad

todays topic is a picute
you love

here is mine

now i know what your thinking why on earth would i take little on have one i love be of storm coulds
well there a reason had it not been for my granddad telling at age of 4
about storms and why he loved them i would hate storms and be scared to death of them
but his story made me love them and every time i see a storm i think of him and smile you see i was close to him at a young but he passed away on my 5th birthday and miss him terrbibly so when i see a storm
i cant help but smile cause i feel he is with me on those days
so thank you granddad for my love of storms

GOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLL

HELLO READER(S) IF ANY AT ALL
TODAYS TOPIC IS GOALS
I USE MY GOALS AS THE SAME AS DREAMS SO YOUR SO LUCKY YOUR GETTING BOTH TODAY LOL

1. TREAT OTHERS BETTER THAN THEY TREAT ME
2. TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN A PERSONS LIFE ( I HOPE DO) BUT I NEVER WANNA KNOW IF I DO CAUSE THEN I KNOW I WOULD STOP
3. I WANT BE THE BEST FRIEND, SISTER, DOUGHTER, PERSON, TA, I CAN BE
4. I WANT TO GROW IN MY FAITH
5. I WANT TO ALWAYS ACCEPT AND LOVE PPL
6. I WANT TO EDUCATE THE WORLD THAT PPL WITH DISABILITIES ARE ARENT HORRIBLE, EVIL BUT AMAZING PPL AND THAT THEY ARENT STUPID
7. I WANT TO MAKE THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE
8. I WANT MY KIDS TO KNOW I LOVE THEM ( THE ONES I WORK WITH) :)
9 I WANT TO CHALLANGE PPL IN THEIR BELIEFS NOT TO ATTACK THEM BUT TO MAKE THEM STRONGER
10 I WANT A BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF ALL REGLIONS
11. I WANT TO HELP OTHERS BE BETTER PEOPLE
12, I WANT ALL OF SOLIDERS TO KNOW THAT THEY ARE LOVED, APPRATED, THAT PPL ARE GREATFUL FOR WHAT THEY DO
13. I WANT THE SAME FROM ABOVE FOR OUR FIRE FIGHTERS, POLICE AND EMS AND TEACHERS ASWELL
14. I HOPE TO LIVE MY LIFE TO FULLIEST
15. I WANT TO BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE
16. I DONT WANT TO BE OF THIS WORLD
17. I ALWAYS I CAN SEE THINGS AS MANY DIFFERENT PRESPISTIVES AS POSSIBLE
18. I ALWAYS WANT TO BE OPEN MINDED ABOUT LIFE AND OTHERS VIEWS OF IT
19. I WANT MY FRIENDS AND FAM AND CO WORKERS AND KIDS TO KNOW IM ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM NO MATTER WHAT
20 I WANT PPL WHO COME A CROSS ME TO KNOW THAT I LOVE THEM FOR WHO THEY ARE AND I HOPE TO MAKE THEM SMILE
HERE ARE GOALS FOR LIFE
HOPE YOU ENJOYED THEM

faith

today topic is what i believe
well this an interesting topic because i know
that i believe in God and I know he is amazing
and lord but i also believe that if you want respect than you better be giving it
treat others better than the way they treat you and give everyone same amount of respect until they show you their true colors
be willing to forgive others
dont just give trust away
i also believe you can make someone's day
just by giving them a hug, a smile saying hi and they dont cost a dime
i believe that its possible that the God Jews and Christians worship is the same one mussilams call Ali (sp) forgive if miss spilled
i believe bending over backwards for your friends unless they turn their back on you
know where you stand
be willing to debate
also you may not always be the best way
try too look at things from as many angels as possle
people may not agree with you and thats okay learn from them it may make you stronger in your faith and help you grow
but also feel that our faith is very growing changing
when life happens and challenges us which why its imporant to have faith
also i dont believe any one from church has got it right but think they all have aspects right but also wrong
so i believe in the end God will not judge us by actions or how we treat others
but by hearts
enjoy

tv shows

well today topic is favorite tv shows
and honestly i really dont have a lot
i useually have it for noise cause
i cant stand quite
so here the ones i willing watch
under cover boos
extrame home make over
say yes to the dress
the local news
sports nation on espn

so here is my list exciting hun
lol
have a great day

what are you scared of??????

You thought i wasnt gonna post didnt you well sorry to bust your buble but i am
todays topic is about your fears
i have a few fears
the one youll probably laugh at is im beyond scared to death of the dark i litterally cant sleep if my room is dark it litterally have panic attacks thats how bad it is i have to have lights on or tv on something if i want a chance of sleep

the next one is i cant stand slince it also freaks me out i have to have tv and or the radio/ipod on if i want to sleep

now im sure your wondering why im scare of these things and although its very good reasons i will not post it on here this for my deariest friends to know

now some normal fears
snakes, spiders, heights, bees/wasps

now you know a bit more about me

i get by with a little help from my friends

Today im blogging about some of friends
i have been blessed to have some amazing friends
some i have known for 20 yrs and some less but
i truly believe friends are our angels to help us when
we need it

sorry for all the pics but these are my best friends
who have seen me through soo many things and stood by me
and to them i thank you
yall are amazing
i love you
and cherish each of you
and to the readers i hope you hold your friends close i know i do
this blog is bitter sweet as show pics but think of the so many friends i have lost
and greatful for them and you

ohhh the places i have been

today is about places i have vistied now i havent visited alot of places alot has do with money and time seems i have always been working, doing school work and money has been an isssue most places i have been too have been because of family and or mission trips i rarley get to travel just to travel but im not complaing i promise i have traveled to a few places for fun but mostly do to mission trips which have been huge but my favorite mission trips have been to mexico i have gone twice to Piedras Negras
and once to Aqulice mexico (sp?) with edmond coc in ok which is in the moutains of mexico and lets say going to mexico forever changed my life and i miss it but im thankful for so many times i have gone i cant explaine how each time has changed me and challaged me and made me grow and apprate the the things i have here and help me see how lucky we are here i love to travel and thankful every time i get tooo
i hope to go back to mexico some day and see another part of it but i know it wont be any time soon because the borders are soo bad which makes me sad and breaks my heart
i pray for peace to come back to the border of mexico soon

here are a couple of pics of Acquelice

part of my heart will always be left in mexico

movie

todya im suppsoe to blog about my favorite movies
and honestly im not huge movie person but i do like my fair share of them
i think part of it alot of movies cause me to get too much stimulus from them or i cant get stand the story line but some i love not in any order
are
1. beauty and Beast
2. Pochuntes
3. Little Mirmaid
4. Cindercella
5. cars
6. sherk 1 and 2
7. cartoons of how the grinch stole christmas, rouldh the red nose reindeer, frosty the snow man
8. Lean on me
9. A League of their own
10. Little Women
theres my list

ohhh happy day

today is day 6 of blogg challange and its supposed a pic of something that makes you happy
i have a few things that make me happy but ill post my top ones
first one is care bears yes im 28 and yes i love care bears

2 is storms i love a good storm makes me happy

3 my puppy shes my love and she always makes me happy

all of these and many more make me happy
and so much
what makes you happy

favorite recipies

Todays topic makes me laugh i guess they expect me to know how to cook
however thats just not the case i conisder my self lucky if i dont burn down the apt
lol i don have any favorite recipies to cook
but the one i love to bake is
Potato Chip Cookies
( wish i had a pic for you but i dont)

this makes 2-3 dozen
1/2 LB butter ( 2 sticks)
2 cups sifted flour
1/2 cup surgar
1/2 cup crushed potato chips ( i use lays plan it take about half a bag of chips i crush in spearate bowl) but you can use any plan potato chip
1 teaspoon vanilla
1/2 choped nuts (optional)
cream togather butter, surgar, vanilla until smooth
add flour, chips, nuts (nuts optional)
roll dough into small balls press flat with damp forke on ungreased cookie sheet bake at 350 for 15-20 mins or until golden brown
it can be doubled easily if needed

its not to sweet or salty
enjoy

blog day 4

Today we get to talk about our parents
well i have quite a few of them you see i was adopted at 2 weeks of age
so im so very greatful for my birth parents for giving me up and to God
for blessing me with my momma i love her to death i do have father and i do not want to get into it ill sum up this way we dont speak and i decided i no longer needed
but my mom ohh man shes amazing she the most caring loving person i have ever met she bends over backwords for her fince,kids, friends, father, doggy she is always there to listen deals with me and lets be honest thats a hand feul and she tought me to respect others till they show me ture colors
raised me and my brother with very little money and she tought us so much she is my best friend and i cant imgaine how hard it was to raise me because im servally dyslexic and dysgraphic which are learning disabilites but mine are are rare because the 3 types of dyslexia and the dysgraphia are all ate extrame level which means i struggle with lots of things but blessed God has given me a mom who fought for me to in regular classes, learn to have adpat to everyday life

she not perfect but im couldnt ask for a better one
she tought me to put others first and make sure to trat all with respect know what you stand for and always be who you are
she tought me the imprance of voting and how to find my own faith
to being there for my friends

mom thanks for being amaizng
i love you

first love

so today im suppose to tell you about my first love well there one problem i never had a first love i had a bf for 4 months but we never got to point of saying "I LOVE YOU" to each other so love story for me and probably never will be so insted i
will tell about this love

the white puppy is my baby Buffy we have had for 17 years now and she is love of my life its amazing how much i love her and miss the other sweetheart is my niece puppy daisy and i aboustly love them both they are my girls

day 2

hello happy wensday to all if any readers are out there
todays topic is the meaning behind my blogger name
and as much id love to say i have some awesome creative reason for it
i dont the baby ble eyed girl comes from the fact im the baby of my fam i have baby blue eyes and welp if you couldnt figure this out im a girl
so there lovely meaning behind my blog name exciting ehh
guess not lol
just on a side note im not if its just me or if this week has felt like the longest week ever
no
okay its jsut me then
lol
have a good one

30 day challange

Hello my name is Margaret Canaday
and Im doing this 30 day blog challange thanks to
my friend Lauren who first did the challange now im doing it
you can see hers here so now im doing it thanks Lauren
now i have been a blogger for awhile but never conistant may be a blog once or twice a month so now i will do one every day for 30 days (hopefully)

the pic above is of me and one of my really good dear friends Aliese taken in her car by her phone i really love her and this pic

so here 15 random facts about me

1. i love carebears and i do mean love
2. i have a collection of stuffed animals that are dogs
3. i have 3 favorite colors which are blue, green and purple love tbem
4. i was named after my KIKI ( grandma) and im just like her too
5. i wasnt suppose to go to college and get a degree but i did
6. i love country music
7. i love oldies music too
8. i love musicals
9. i love to watch high shcool and college sports
10 the Spurs are the only professonal sports team i like
11. i have never been kissed
12. im dyslexic and extramly proud of it
13. im very silly and goofy ask my friends
14. i love to play games
15. i love homemade chex mix i make it once a week i think im addicited to it
i hope you enjoy this first day of blogging and hope you come back
byeeeeeee

Emontional girl

I litterally cant remeber the last time i had a week sooo full of emtions i dont know if i should be crying tears of joy and happiness or tears of hurt so im numb meaning i dont know which way to feel or how to feel and so confused that i litterally icnoring all of my emontions to get through the days   i mean i had huge highs from the results of my evaluation, the joys of good commpany and friends from long ago and ones i see often to friends appoving of imporant things ( to me they need to approve of :) ) and also just the amazingness of my students and how they surpised and amazed me and made feel like to them they know i love them and i making a difference with them  to friends who have are amazing just so thankful for and the little things they do
to lows of knowing my grandfather not doing well, and sick and just getting worse, to  some friends losing their mothers and another  loss of a grandfather and a teacher having major surgery who loved working with and  for me the loss of friend who battled cancer with  honor, respect, love and with a smile on her face and she  was honest with how she felt and how she was doing  yet  she  the best attitude i have ever seen of any one i mean really  she tought that i need a better attitude on life and be more apprative of it i wish i could have had her attitude when i was sick  and this week has shown to apprate the little things in life such as a hug from a friend just talking to them and smiles are so imporant and how wonderful it is to let the kids know its okay to make mistakes and know that when do wrong i still love them and when do great that were proud of them and  know that tomorrow is not promised the next hour is not promised this week has shown how living in the moment is whats really imporant and not worrying about how i look, my house looks whats improanthow i treat others and if your a friend of mine know that i love you and im always here for you and im so thankful for who you are :) and i hope you can be real with me with how your feeling about what ever is going on in your life  and i will love you no matter what choices you make in life i may not agree with it but i will always stand by you
i want to thank the friends i have had stand by me that few days through all of these emontionas and being there for me
i honestly do not know what i would do with out you
hugs
and remeber to smell the roses or at leasst try to find good in each day  and dont sweat the small stuff  it wont matter in the end what will is how treat those around you

the flip side to the snow

I want to thank my friend Jami for making my itch of blogging even bigger after reading hers....
Well most of my friends have been complaining about the snow and ice and roads and since im tired of the complants  im going to give many reasons why im beyond thankful for the snow and the blizzard yes i said im THANKFUL for IT
you see growing up in south texas snow comes like every 20 yrs  no lie, but im thankfful for it for them because lots of my friends kids got to see snow for the first time ever even if it not much its still something also im thankful for it in okc because we needed the moisture of the snow to help the ground  and  grass and plants, but i love looking at it it makes me smile and think of visting my Kiki and Bops in Denver during winter time  and the memories i have  the snow has also given time to sleep in ( which is a treat i dont get much any more!) also i was able to deep clean my apt and  get so much needed things done which i havent had time to do, it has also given time to relax and just enjoy being home and  apptemt cooking which hasnt worked out too well and given me time  to rest  and be thankful for the little things
in life
so if your one of many complaining
i will not be commenting on it
what are the postives for you about the snow
you know mine  also
next time you find your self complaining about something
look at how its a hidden blessing to your life
who knew snow would be a blessing for me :)

What Hurts the Most is Knowing who you'dbe today

The title of this blog comes from 2 country songs
What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts and Who you'd be today by Kenny Chesney
these songs have been playing on the radio alot and not just country stations and on my ituns/ipad too and i think its because im barley beinging the griving process, you see a year ago this month i lost 2 friends of mine and i havent accepted it, i have been in denial about both them being gone and what hurts the most for me was how close we were and how i know i should  been a better friend and should have been there for them and i wasnt and the thing is i cant for life of me stop thinking of who would they be today and it kills me that i know i own some sort of responabiltly to their passing and in the end i put other things and other people in front of them but i never saw this comming
and my heart hurts so much it cant even begain to explain this
and i know over time i will gain peace with what happend but i also know it will take some time
i struggle with asking for forgiveness from God
when i cant forgive myself
and im hounted by their passing
i know their in heaven and their in a better place
but i wonder if i will ever get over the pain and the hurt
its been a year and i still feel like it was yesterday when all of this happend and the pain is still as fresh as ever.......
ellie and mindy  you will never know what a profound impact on my life and life of all of those who you knew you, loved you and miss  you,  yall never hasted to put others first and help any body in any way  a normal " hi how are" im good  in passing was never enough you always wanted to know everything going on in everyones life  you showed all of us how to love and live
you both made this world a better  place to live and you made all of us who knew you how to be better people so thank you
forever loved and missed

2011 the hope

I cant remeeber the last time if ever i have felt so hopeful for a new year in my entire 28 years of life ( that would be how old i am)
I have a job i love and thats already a better start than how 2010 started
im working on what all i need and want to improve on this year
and what goals i feel i can keep :)
when i know these i  might share or you might see them if you see me in person
now if i get to keep the job i have now then 2011 will be best year yet
i do hope that 2011 is best year for all of my friends and family and that all of your wishes, hopes for this year come true :)
happy new year to all

2010 a look back

2010 was a very rough year
i was very depressed, jobless
lost 2 friends less than  a week and half apart from eachother
lost my faith in many ways but then comes march and i have a job for the end of the year, gained a summer job which lead to my courent job now
and depression getting better
i relized how much better off i was with out my father and gained peace with that  he is an ass and thats okay i relized i have long way to go in my realtionship with God but im working on it very day i put my self in sort of counciling and its been helping alot Loranda your a life savor
i have seen friendship disapear for what ever reason
but i have gained so many more new friends
was able renew and grow old friendships
and seeing me start to change
2010 was a rough year but it wasnt horrible
andd and i got my first speeding ticket ever :(

Christmas Break

yes i know its new years day but since comming back from home i havent had a chance to breath ( but thats not a bad thing) ;)
but i really been wanting to take some time to blog about my time at home for the most part it was fanstic  making firemen smile
and spending time with fam is great and then making my "nices and "newphew" smile and want toys vs play place  is amazing and then seeing my sweet sweet grace go down the slide, walk  when she was never suppose to do this just makes me ubber gubber happy and proud and then spending time with their parents sarah and ginna is just what my heart called for i cant explain what spending time with these group of amazing people does for me and heart
they are beyond a blessing for me
and then spending time with another friend whose known me for so long is amazing
then of course is  my doggies buffy and daisy
then i scored on presents though that wasnt what makes going home worth all pain it is to travel  in pics you will see what makes it worth it me :) and fitting into a shirit i havent since middle school