heart borken

My heart is borken its sad i feel like this isnt real but i have to face it and know it is
i got a call last night that an old high school and friend of mine committed suicide his family was going through alot and i guess he decided he couldnt handle it all  any more and or felt that may be it wasnt going to get better  and may be he lost hope ill never know what was going on through his mind to make him feel this way and neither will any of his friends  know why now  we his family and    friends are here to moron the loss of him in this unspeakable heartbreaking situation and im still in shock of the news of the loss of this class mate who was a nice awesome guy  it makes me sad that he is gone i just hope on some level he knew how loved he was and special he was
please if your going through difficult times please know i  nor dose any one else dont know when or how but i promise it will get better and please go talk to someone a religious/spiritual leader, a trusted friend, family member, a counselor, a medical professional  please go talk to someone and please dont get give up and know it will get better and please dont lose hope
last night was just another reminder that time has wonderful way showing what really matters and that we are not promised tomorrow
and please know that you are loved and that will get better

and to my class mates or friends, family or any one
please know im always here if you need anything im here for you

please tell your loved that you love them everyday because you just never  when will be the last time you talk to them or see them
it amazing how life can change an instance

:)

last few days have been aboustly wonderful getting talk to on the phone or hanging out with friends but nothing was better than today having wonderful time my best friend paul  his boy friend  our other friend em watching our joey on stage and seeing other friends in the show and the magic of today was being with my best friends  and i cant explain it but there is just something extra special about these 3 friends of mine im sooo blessed to have in my life and im sooo thankful for every time its 3 of us its extra special because its such a rare treat and aboustly amazing and the fact we got to add a boyfriend just makes it just a bit better and than yesterday i got to talk to my dear sweet sister katie in chicago and i miss her like crazy but those 20-30 mins were just so uplifitng and this week i can also add getting to talk to old professor of mine who love and respect dearly and chatting with him for about 45 mins and hanging with my old roomie and good friend anne which was great  i also got to have lunch with another lacey who just wonderful and loving  ahhh and than getting to see my other sister sammie and having lunch with her  was just soo wounderful and than i got to have lunch with one of my mommas friday i got to have best friend time with paul which is always great and  i got to talk on the phone tonight with another and I'm just so thankful for all these amazing people in my life im beyond greatful for and soo lucky to have my heart is happy but im still just soo giddy getting to have all 3 of my best friends in one day ahhh life dose not get better than this  it really dosent